February 9, 2018,
I have not gone outside in 2 years.
2 years is a long time. The last time I went to go see a movie was 50 Shades of Grey, and that came out in 2015. The last time I went out to eat was on my birthday in 2016. In the same year, I went out to a casino in my hometown and couldn’t even walk from the front door to the first slot machine without losing my breath and feeling weak in my legs. Basically, since I haven’t gone outside (for any reason) within 2 years, I basically stop walking around. Well, I walk around my apartment but does that really count as walking. Not to mention, I have gained a lot of weight.
So, what am I going to do about this? Well, I don’t know. But, I do know I need to start somewhere. But, where.
First thing first, is to find a way to get my strength back. So, if I want to walk further than to my mailbox, say to the corner store, then I can. But, little steps first. I am not one of those people who like to jump head first into a pool, I prefer to slowly lower my body down. I know that if my jump first, then the cold water will only shock me at first (before my body gets used to it), but slow and steady wins the race, right.
After that, is the figuring out and planning stage. Figuring out how I am going to do this. What way or method will best suit me. However, I cannot buy anything that could possibly be of help to me. I cannot afford any weight loss programs, meal plans, equipment, or even buying food from places like Whole Foods. I just don’t have the money for it (And, before you ask, how do you afford to buy all that makeup. Well, that is simple. My friend buys it for me with her discount. She knows I have a great love for all things beauty, especially makeup and takes pity on me). I sadly do not have a job. I am blessed with a wonderful mother who still takes care of me like I am a 5-year-old child. Which I know is wrong. It should be the other way around, especially since she is getting up there in age.
But, the question is, do you need to buy all this expensive stuff to have the same outcome. Well, I do not know, but I am about to find out.
The next step is to find a way for me to workout. I live in an apartment (on the second floor, which means someone lives under me), so no jumping around for me. That means I need a workout plan that not only fits my living situation but my body also. I am not as strong as I use to be. Not walking around has left me quite weak.
I think I confessed enough today. Ja Ne.